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UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

…so the relationship was ephemeral - . I say to myself ALL IS WELL and IT IS WHAT IT IS and Gugu moves right along.

I decide to embark on unconditional Love - what a challenge.  I love no matter what. 

In 2012 I started having seizures, and they became frequent, it worried my loved ones, I remember Alex volunteering to walk the government hospital journey with me, which included long queues and early mornings, him witnessing my invisible veins as the nurses were trying to draw blood out of me, it took him on a totally personal journey while I was in my own WTF zone – trying to understand the whole fuss.  It turned out to be the most amazing experience for me, when I witnessed Love first hand.

My boys witnessing me at my weakness, scarring the SHIT out of them, while I was out of it – there was ‘nothing’ – out of body – out of life experience, BUT when I regained consciousness – the PEACE FULL NESS I felt was beyond bliss – while the physical body was wounded, bitten tongue, blood oozing out of my lips. When they reiterated what they witness – I had no clue – I only asked them why they didn’t take a video as I had no comprehension to what they were talking about. To me it felt like I had just woken up from the most peace fullest sleep ever.

The Zulu healing women said to me, ’you will not need to take any medicine after performing a traditional ceremony that was supposed to have been done at your birth’ – surprise, surprise when you have been born by a mother who was raised by the German Lutheran missionaries, and there is a secrete trace of German in her own blood – she knew nothing of the sort, though she was married to a core Zulu guy, who decided to kick the bucket within five years of their married life = obviously she did what she knew best, raising her kids religiously and not traditionally.  We all do what we know.

So it turned out I was born with a veil and it was not acknowledged at birth as it is what connects me to my ancestors, the no physical world and reason for my seizures was because I was stuck between the two spheres, the physical and the non-physical. Ever since the ceremony I have never had any attack, an esteemed homeopath confirmed this. It’s been over a year – I celebrate and I am grateful to be the chosen one.

I am learning to look at any experience as an experience, nothing less - nothing more. I am learning not to put conditions to any situations, not to put labels to anything, to accept LOVE as it flows through me.  The gratitude I have towards life, towards family, friends – especially when challenging times are upon me, to be vulnerable, with the knowing that my strength is made perfect in my weakness – this liberates me. To open myself to love – pure love .

It is blissful,

I LoVe you – you are playing a big part in my life – I cannot bring myself to judge you – or hate you, coz that will mean I am judging me and hating me – the best thing to do is to thank you for showing up.

The next chapter is being written and only the gods know why you have been drawn into my existence, why we had, or have the interaction. I embrace it and I surrender and remain open to the guidance.

Love

GugutheCoach